A New Clue

So i have been really homesick these past couple of days and the stress of school has not been helping. today it came to a point and i snapped. I started crying at dinner and left the dining hall to go back to my room. my bff informed me she would be stopping by in a bit to check on me(she is soo sweet i love her) so i got on my computer to look at a newly posted picture of this hottie on my profile and talk to my ex-boyfriend who is very helpful in these situations.
I was being particularly upset and mean but then my friend came on and he started talking to me; he found out i was upset and came up to my room to comfort me. I regretted immediately asking him to because the second he walked in that door i knew i would regret it but i still said yes because something told me to. he knocked on the door and i opened it. he had a serious face and put his hand on my shoulder as i headed back to my room and got on my computer. I told him what was wrong in a roundabout way and started to cry. He put a hand on my shoulder and i leaned against him. he was serious and not kidding and silly which made me happy because i didn't think he had the ability to do that. I told him i didn't want to go to my club meeting tonight and he said i should but would i break down in tears if i did? i told him i might and he said(not teasing or anything which still shocks me) that we should wait 30 min(that's when it started at the time) and then see. I ended up going but he just held me and didn't say anything and i gained a whole new respect for him as a person because i didn't think he knew how to treat girls or how to be serious and mature but he does and i like this new side of him.
I also grew in another step to loving Him more because he brought me this peace with my friend and it calmed me down. i remember stopping as my ex was trying to help me and asking myself why i was resisting change and maybe i should go with it even though i have failed before. God wouldn't always let me fail because He loves me too much so i turned my mood around and it worked so i am grateful to him for that. Thank you Lord