so i have been noticing that my nose picks up smells more now. I pick out smells that remind me of home. right now it smells like missouri in the summer time when my sister and i would catch fireflies at night. Specifically at my grandma's house in the middle of nowhere, not at any of my other relatives houses...actually also my aunt's house when she used to live in a certain area before she moved.
Then it changed to the smell after a rain when the dirt was wet and i went running or for a walk in the woods.
In the mornings, it smells like home when i go out early in the morning during the winter on weekends to get the paper because i woke up before my parents and wanted those precious comics that would start my day off. sweet sweet smells of my past that i cherish sincerely and love to savor, stopping to look around and pause in my busy day, until my nose gets tired or i come back to reality.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
A WhirlWind of a Week
So this week was crazy. At the beginning it was pretty calm academically, but social wise it was crazy.
my best friend had a lovely night with a boy i like who she is good friends with which sorta broke my heart so i yelled at her and she broke down. I then went to talk to the boy in question and he was a complete dick to me so i decided i didn't like him anymore because we don't have any of the same ideals. i talked to my guy friend about it and it helped.
The rest of the week proceeded smoothly until thursday when homework hit me like a ton of bricks. I stressed out and due to the lovely gift that mother earth bestows upon women, i had a panic attack and had to go to my friend's room for him to calm me down until it passed. I don't know where i would be without him, he completely relaxes me and i don't have to impress him because being myself does anyway and that's how i want to feel around my future husband but that goes without saying.
After so said panic attack, I hung out and when back to my room where i went to bed early and slept very well. Friday morning, I woke up early and went to breakfast, then wrote my english paper and got ready, all before 10am which made me feel good and productive. now i am less stressed but still homesick, hoping to deal with it somehow, praying to the Lord to help me which He has been doing a fabulous job of doing so far.
He has been answering my prayers left and right in ways i could not imagine. He is helping my bff with her boy problems and her roommate problems(she is moving out!) so i am very grateful.
Last night's dream was fabulous! It doesn't really make sense but it had two elements i love in it: puppies and a hot boy. The puppy turned into the hot boy but that's just the strange nature of dreams and i didn't care. I woke up far too soon for my liking but that's also the unfortunate nature of dreams. May the Lord bless each and everyone and help us all throughout our weekends and into the next week.
my best friend had a lovely night with a boy i like who she is good friends with which sorta broke my heart so i yelled at her and she broke down. I then went to talk to the boy in question and he was a complete dick to me so i decided i didn't like him anymore because we don't have any of the same ideals. i talked to my guy friend about it and it helped.
The rest of the week proceeded smoothly until thursday when homework hit me like a ton of bricks. I stressed out and due to the lovely gift that mother earth bestows upon women, i had a panic attack and had to go to my friend's room for him to calm me down until it passed. I don't know where i would be without him, he completely relaxes me and i don't have to impress him because being myself does anyway and that's how i want to feel around my future husband but that goes without saying.
After so said panic attack, I hung out and when back to my room where i went to bed early and slept very well. Friday morning, I woke up early and went to breakfast, then wrote my english paper and got ready, all before 10am which made me feel good and productive. now i am less stressed but still homesick, hoping to deal with it somehow, praying to the Lord to help me which He has been doing a fabulous job of doing so far.
He has been answering my prayers left and right in ways i could not imagine. He is helping my bff with her boy problems and her roommate problems(she is moving out!) so i am very grateful.
Last night's dream was fabulous! It doesn't really make sense but it had two elements i love in it: puppies and a hot boy. The puppy turned into the hot boy but that's just the strange nature of dreams and i didn't care. I woke up far too soon for my liking but that's also the unfortunate nature of dreams. May the Lord bless each and everyone and help us all throughout our weekends and into the next week.
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